I learnt something about blogs, you don't need to have a title. This relieves me by a lot because many times, I wonder what I should label my posts.

Anyway, life after Dota (around 3 weeks now) has been a bit rough. I've been indulging in some of those facebook Tower Wars when I'm awfully bored. Next week I have 2 assignments to pass in again. And today's finance test was the best compared to the 2 last ones.

I've been doing great with both my Psyc subjects and my FINS1612, but somehow, FINS1613 has been really mean to me. I have failed EVERY tutorial quizzes. I haven't even told my family about this. I feel like dropping it and start again next semester so it wouldn't pull my other grades down later because I feel rather hopeless.

It's that kindda like that "learnt helplessness" thingy. If I still do bad in this 3rd test despite feeling good about it, I'd probably drop it because really, I think I've been conditioned to do badly for this subject.. No, I'm not putting the blame on some psychological theory, it's just that I don't think it's worth scraping a pass on this one.

Thoughts about today has been dull too. The only thing that was on my mind was that FINS1613 test. But while daydreaming a bit, I remembered something interesting that happened here at Uni.

There was this group of people last year that set up a stall at the main walkway with a banner saying, "Cancel your facebook account!". I'm a naturally curios person and walked out of my way to speak with them. They were very helpful since I was the only person there.

They told me about many ideas I haven't really absorbed into my thoughts even till today. For example, they told me that the world is living in the hands of the government. Every single fasion, trends and news are being controlled by them with tools such as magazines, news papers and now facebook.

At that point, I was imagining a whole office building full of facebookers monitoring every profile, groups and events created by the users. Then, I went on imagining them having meeting on what trend to set next and all those stuff. I was still very puzzled at that idea and went on and asked, "Ok, so what can an international student like me can do about it?"

Here's what's interesting, he said, "it's pretty hard to do anything in your situation." Which is true, but then I asked, "what would you recommend the first step be?"

"Quit uni and join us."

And that point I was:
O_O

After an odd pause, I said I'll think about it and he even gave me a CD titled "The Firewall". Until today, I didn't bother to even open the CD.. lol
I remembered every bit of it because it still pops up every now and then during my daydreams about uni. From time to time I wonder if there's any truth in what that guy said if I took it with a grain of salt.. ok, maybe a spoon full of salt. While it's true that almost all the successful business people have been saying that uni hardly contributed to the knowledge they have now. One of them even said, "maybe 5%?". But the last time I attended one of these talks, James Steven, MD of "Roses Only", he said that in those days, it would have been possible for someone without tertiary education to do well. But in the world today, everything has been kicked up a notch. Life isn't as simple as it use to be back then and that a tertiary education is important, regardless how relevant it is to what you will be doing in your future career.

He talked about many things about university life which held true to me. I've been trying my best to maximise my time here at Uni by joining as many clubs and societies as possible meeting all kinds of people. Learning about social status and cliques the hard way. Applying what I've learn in psychology as best as I can in my uni life. UNSW can be said to be my experimental research lab of myself. Every apparatus and tools to mold and test myself is there. Hopefully, by end of this degree, I understand myself better and am ready for the real world.


In my next blog I'll talk about something else regarding my degree. Stay tuned.. =)