Judgement

"No speech is ever considered, but only the speaker. It's so much easier to pass judgement on a man than on an idea. Though how in hell one passes judgement ona man without considering the content of his brain is more than I'll ever understand. However, that's how it's done."

― Ayn Rand, The Fountainhead

Tears

Man, the "The Fountainhead" by Ayn Rand is so moving. Reading about Cameron and Roark's interaction is leaving me in tears. 

Can't read this book in my open office.. lol

Cards

So someone said to be back in 2019 that life is not a deck of cards (that's after I told him I already played "that" card). 

But it is.. we don't get to choose the cards we're dealt and I used them to the best of my ability. 

Still is...

Not sure if I'll remember who said this to me in the future but that was a moment of slight doubt. 

Moments of doubt embeds in me until I resolve it's regrets. 

And today, I consider this nonsensicality, figured. 

Sorrow

What should I do in the face of sorrow?

There was no solutions. Just pain. 

And she just wanted it to all end as soon as possible.. 😢

Enlightened Beings

I no longer feel the need to meet enlightened beings. 

We'll probably just meditate together with no need for exchanges of words. 

Prove me wrong and send one my way! 

Reasons to Stop Learning

The more I learn, the more wrong I see. 

The more wrong I see, the more I want to correct. 

The more I want to correct, the more I suffer. 

So the only thing worth learning is to learn to be a good man. Then waste no more time arguing about what a good man should be. 

Just be one. 

Nothing else is worth learning more than the people around you. 

So... teach the people around you who's willing to learn. As they learn, I can learn more. 

Unless that happens, learn no more. 

Heaven

So there's this really good story from the book, A History of the World in 10½ Chapters, by Julian Barnes where people go to heaven and what they're doing in heaven is they're very given what they think is immortality. 

So one guy he practices golf until he's getting a score of 18 right and then he's sort of like okay, what do I do now? What are we doing? Then he comes to st. Peter and he says, okay like what's going on? What's wrong? Aren't you doing everything you want? 

The guy replies, I am! But like I get great at it, I get great at everything! And I'm kindda done...

And then St. Peter says, ah now you get the point of Heaven. The point of Heaven isn't to live out immortality. It is to make you accept death. 

*Mind blown*

What a story... surprise no Christians (or any Heaven believers) ever told me this because this was a missing piece for me for a very long time. Why would anyone want to go to Heaven? If there's no suffering there, there's nothing to fix. There's no purpose in life for Heaven. Everything you see (if we do see) on Earth cannot be interfered. That's hell! Imagine the torture I'd have to endure after learning everything I've learned and seeing whoever's left on Earth making all the ignorant mistakes, over and over again. 

But now... if Heaven is to make us accept death. It has a purpose. But the next problem now is, what's next after that? 🤔