Monday, May 25, 2009

Genesis
8:21 Yahweh smelled the sweet savor. Yahweh said in his heart, "I will not again curse the ground any more for man's sake, because the imagination of man's heart is evil from his youth; neither will I ever again strike everything living, as I have done.

Hmm.. looks like Yahweh broke his words a couple of times this pass few decades.. then again maybe all those flu virus, tsunami and stuff were caused by Satan..

Then again again, Satan is the "absence" of God.. Which rather confuses me the more I read the Bible..

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Ok.. my "next post" will have to wait, I want to write about something else:

curtains closed
as I slipped off the red carpet
I'm sliding down a tunnel
filled with many familiar noises

as I reached the bottom
you came up to me
yet with just a glance
you brought me down another

sliding down again
everything's so fast
yesterday was just today
and last week was just yesterday
and suddenly I've let a secret out
to a person I've hardly known

sitting here I wonder alone to myself
why did I tell her a secret none understands
was it to form a bond that hopefully grows stronger
or was it a slip of tongue like none other

what future will it hold I wonder
should I try to amend it with more secret
or should I just ignore that
and make her just another

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Wow.. didn't realise I wrote such a long post...
I learnt something about blogs, you don't need to have a title. This relieves me by a lot because many times, I wonder what I should label my posts.

Anyway, life after Dota (around 3 weeks now) has been a bit rough. I've been indulging in some of those facebook Tower Wars when I'm awfully bored. Next week I have 2 assignments to pass in again. And today's finance test was the best compared to the 2 last ones.

I've been doing great with both my Psyc subjects and my FINS1612, but somehow, FINS1613 has been really mean to me. I have failed EVERY tutorial quizzes. I haven't even told my family about this. I feel like dropping it and start again next semester so it wouldn't pull my other grades down later because I feel rather hopeless.

It's that kindda like that "learnt helplessness" thingy. If I still do bad in this 3rd test despite feeling good about it, I'd probably drop it because really, I think I've been conditioned to do badly for this subject.. No, I'm not putting the blame on some psychological theory, it's just that I don't think it's worth scraping a pass on this one.

Thoughts about today has been dull too. The only thing that was on my mind was that FINS1613 test. But while daydreaming a bit, I remembered something interesting that happened here at Uni.

There was this group of people last year that set up a stall at the main walkway with a banner saying, "Cancel your facebook account!". I'm a naturally curios person and walked out of my way to speak with them. They were very helpful since I was the only person there.

They told me about many ideas I haven't really absorbed into my thoughts even till today. For example, they told me that the world is living in the hands of the government. Every single fasion, trends and news are being controlled by them with tools such as magazines, news papers and now facebook.

At that point, I was imagining a whole office building full of facebookers monitoring every profile, groups and events created by the users. Then, I went on imagining them having meeting on what trend to set next and all those stuff. I was still very puzzled at that idea and went on and asked, "Ok, so what can an international student like me can do about it?"

Here's what's interesting, he said, "it's pretty hard to do anything in your situation." Which is true, but then I asked, "what would you recommend the first step be?"

"Quit uni and join us."

And that point I was:
O_O

After an odd pause, I said I'll think about it and he even gave me a CD titled "The Firewall". Until today, I didn't bother to even open the CD.. lol
I remembered every bit of it because it still pops up every now and then during my daydreams about uni. From time to time I wonder if there's any truth in what that guy said if I took it with a grain of salt.. ok, maybe a spoon full of salt. While it's true that almost all the successful business people have been saying that uni hardly contributed to the knowledge they have now. One of them even said, "maybe 5%?". But the last time I attended one of these talks, James Steven, MD of "Roses Only", he said that in those days, it would have been possible for someone without tertiary education to do well. But in the world today, everything has been kicked up a notch. Life isn't as simple as it use to be back then and that a tertiary education is important, regardless how relevant it is to what you will be doing in your future career.

He talked about many things about university life which held true to me. I've been trying my best to maximise my time here at Uni by joining as many clubs and societies as possible meeting all kinds of people. Learning about social status and cliques the hard way. Applying what I've learn in psychology as best as I can in my uni life. UNSW can be said to be my experimental research lab of myself. Every apparatus and tools to mold and test myself is there. Hopefully, by end of this degree, I understand myself better and am ready for the real world.


In my next blog I'll talk about something else regarding my degree. Stay tuned.. =)

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

7.14am

Good morning world! This is a brand new day of my life and believe it or not, yesterday was different, very different. Why? Because I have 下决心 to flip around my life before it further delve into the unpredictable hell of my own laziness.

And how does it start? By waking up 7.10am in the morning..

And yea, Lisa might be dropping by here soon if she knows how to use google properly. So hi Lisa! =P
I think Kerrie will come over too.. so hi Kerrie!

Edit: didn't know it was "Kerrie" with an "E" not "A".. sorry.. >,<

Sunday, May 17, 2009

How some amazing animals overcome problems

This amazing video shows how a bunch of ants overcome a flood.
How? They make a boat..
With what? With a bunch of ants....

Re-start?

Hi all, I haven't been writing awhile now. More than a year or two. But yesterday, Adrian lim asked me why not, and I couldn't give an excuse. So here I am.. taking the first step.
edit: I just remembered one of the reasons. It was because my mum found out about my blog..

As I was reading my past blogs I noticed a few things.
There was this girl, JeeWen who commented that she liked my writings. After doing abit of stalking, I found her facebook profile and realised that she's from SMKDU and was 3 years younger than me. How did she stumble upon my blog? I got no idea.

Why take such an effort to find those out? I don't know.. it's just coz I'm looking for a inspirations to write I guess.

This post won't be too interesting because it's already 2.20am and i'm at my aunt's house sleeping over. we'll be doing some groceries tomorrow morning at the market.

After putting my hands on this keyboard and am back at this blogger page, memories are sure flooding in. I think my next few posts are going to be quite interesting.

Good night people, sweet dreams.. =)